thank you for the generous gifts of love.
I haven’t cried a lot since our ER ordeal. Even then I was in a state of placid calm. I nearly passed out from my fight or flight response but didn’t cry much. Mostly I cry from the notes and words and prayers sent from people all over the world.
It is humbling, it is a gorgeous gift, so bright and beautiful. I just sob while reading the stories people send me, of how they came across my blog, how they saw one photo of Florence and were entranced, how they can’t stop thinking about us, how they want to be with us on our journey even though they have never met us. And mostly, how they don’t understand it, but they cannot stop rooting for her and believing and praying. Believing for so much more than just healing from this pneumonia. The world believes in miracles, you know.
And the family and friends here, in our city. Well, the endless gifts and words of love and encouragement are over the top. We even have friends sending packages from across North America to our home. I feel so unworthy of all this affection and love and outpouring from a strong and responsive village.
And yet, yesterday God just gave me a smile and said, “stop feeling unworthy. Too many of my children do. Accept the love they give. Don’t be embarrassed. No one is forcing them to do it. It’s my big heart of love in them that propels them into action, makes them want to help carry the burden. Receive it all.”
So, I humbly receive all of your love, from Starbucks or Whole Foods gift cards to homemade meals and bottles of kombucha to 5cent candies and Rescue Remedy pastilles. Packages of goodies we can’t wait to enjoy, little things for Flo. It speaks directly to my heart, since I love hand picked gifts because they are so thoughtful.
Your long letters and stories warm my heart too, so very much. It’s like a chocolate advent calendar of words, one to open every hour.
Bless you all. Bless you for thinking of my girl all day, for dreaming of her round face, for holding us up under the elbows.
We have really, really beautiful people in our lives.
I am also so thankful to my husband for sleeping with Florence and letting me get some sleep. 13 months of getting up in the night has paid off! His turn and his idea. 🙂