waiting for my child to come: 40 weeks pregnant.

March 3, 2012, Michaela Evanow, 8 Comments

I don’t know if there’s such thing as the D-day slump, but I’m sure in one.

I’m not sure how one is supposed to feel on the baby’s due date. Perhaps if I wasn’t such a grumpy pants, I would be feeling excited and looking forward to the next few days or weeks with anticipation. But I’m not.

I can’t believe how much anticipation I had at a mere 6 weeks. It’s such an exciting, precious time, being pregnant, especially in the early stages before any symptoms kick it. The day after this photo was taken I started my nasty bout with uncontrollable nausea and vomiting that lasted well into the second trimester. But at this moment, you couldn’t have burst my bubble if you tried. I was shaking with emotion and so full of joy.

Now, I’m tired, groggy, fed up, on an emotional roller coaster. However, I recognize that at 6 weeks pregnant, I could not comprehend what it would be like to grow a baby. I couldn’t imagine getting a belly, feeling a baby kick inside me. It just felt surreal. And so, as I now wait for the arrival of baby, I feel that same disbelief. She’s going to come out? I’m going to give birth one day soon? This is it? Perhaps if you know me, you can tell by the photo below how ready I am.

This…is not fun anymore.”

Yesterday I had my membranes swept, which was a jolly good time. Not nearly as painful as the external cephalic version, so I put up with it for a good 7 minutes. Baby’s head is nice and low, and some dilation has occurred (2cm). I’m really glad I got on it at 37 weeks and started going through my checklist for cervical ripening.

There have been some other preliminary signs of labor but no progressing contractions, so really, nothing is happening in my mind. Hence the grumpiness.

I’ve pulled out my birthing necklace, made at my Blessingway. It’s a collection of beads brought by friends and family to the Blessingway. I’ll be wearing it during labor, but I’m also wearing it today in faith! I feel like I’m breaking the rules, but it’s encouraging to know that the anticipation for baby girl’s arrival isn’t just filling my home. I have loved the support and kind words received from friends. It keeps me going!

blessingway birthing necklace

Besides stringing beads, I’ve also had the time (imagine that) to string together some dried oranges and fresh bay leaves from our garden. It’s a simple, fragrant ‘Welcome’ garland for baby girl. I’ve hung it it our kitchen, and every time the sun glows through the orange slices, or I catch the scent of bay leaves, I feel a little better.

I wish I’d left all the errand running until the last minute, because I am more than ready for her to come. Everything is in it’s place. My time is spent sleeping, thinking about going for a walk, maybe going for a walk, going for a walk and then sleeping, drinking tea, peeing, peeing, reading and watching the clock. Another day is almost done, another minute closer to holding her sweet, soft self in my arms.

She came! Read her birth story.

8 Comments

  • Reply Todd April 27, 2014 at 5:22 PM

    Perhaps it’s not appropriate for a guy to leave a comment on a site like yours,but when I see a mom-to-be with a pregnant belly as BEAUTIFUL as yours is,I just have to give PRAISE where PRAISE is due!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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  • Reply The Laundry Lady March 5, 2012 at 7:45 AM

    I so feel your pain. I’m driving myself crazy waiting to go into labor. I’ve been having contractions on and off for more than a week. My due date is Friday and I’m really beginning to believe that I’m never going to go into labor. I’m trying to distract myself with last minute clothing sorting and laundry. But mostly I just want to rest, read, watch TV or play video games, anything to keep myself busy and wait for these contractions to finally go somewhere. But mostly I’m trying to keep my adorable albeit whiny toddler happy. During the last week of my last pregnancy I was able to do whatever I liked, but with a toddler and household to care for the days go very slowly. Find something you love to do that doesn’t take too much brain power and do that for a while. You won’t have much time to enjoy yourself on your own for a while once the baby is born. Hope she arrives soon.

  • Reply Rivka David March 4, 2012 at 7:31 PM

    Hows it going Michaela? If nothings doing I hear a spicy curry works a treat 🙂 Anyhow little one will come when shes ready! xxxR

  • Reply Mrs Loquacious March 3, 2012 at 4:01 PM

    Take the time to get pampered! 🙂 Great ways to kill time – prenatal induction massage, pedicure, facial, bubble baths with a few choice magazines to keep you company, and last-minute shopping (or online shopping). I think I did all of these, and though none of them sped up baby’s arrival, they all made *me* feel better 😉

    • Reply Michaela. March 3, 2012 at 4:31 PM

      I love it! Those are great ways to pass time. Thanks Helen! It’s always a good reminder to have fun in this period.

  • Reply Miriam March 3, 2012 at 3:01 PM

    So excited – she IS coming!!! Woo hoo! That candle is itching to burn….
    Today will seem like MONTHS ago in just a few days….
    Feeling the pain with you girl 🙂

  • Reply Kali March 3, 2012 at 1:16 PM

    There’s really nothing like these days of waiting! Your honesty is so fresh and real and it’s so totally normal to feel grumpy-pants. I won’t give advice, only to say- you truly will NOT remember how hard this season of due date+ is when you’re through it. Thanks for sharing your journey with us all!

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